Saturday, July 18, 2020

The memory of the art 'process' and the matriarch








Our family's female matriarchs are the leaders and thus the 'backbone' of our family units.  For the Navajo people/ tribe, she is: mother, grandmother, aunt, sister, cousin-sister, great-aunt and other female relatives.

This being, she is our whole world, one who bundles us up in her hands- protecting us from harm.  From her we find and experience the tangible nature of what 'home' is in her arms embracing us. From her we experience the agape kind of human love that heals us: mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  In my family, she as matriarch was a member of the generation born during the time of the Great Depression in American society, sometimes referred to as the Post-World War Cohort generation born in 1928-1945. She embodied all that I mentioned, and she is the reason for my work now as a cultural educator and practicing southwest female artist.

In recent dialogue with a good friend, a sister, from the eastern coast of the U.S., our conversation steered to how the Post War Cohort generation of people are passing on.  Individuals such as the late and respected civil rights leader John Lewis is one of those individuals who exemplified the counterpart of the matriarch, as a strong, smart patriarch.  The late Mr. Lewis and my grandmother, Jane shared that strong and resilient common attitude to, live in such a way that worked to make the community a better place. My grandmother was  a constant positive energy and her life choices were an expression of a blessed life. The people from this time are the patriarchs matriarchs our families; our great-grandparents. I simply bring up this topic because this era of America and the society was what my grandmother experienced.  She was born in 1930 in northwest New Mexico on the open land of the Navajo lands.  Her existence may not have been of  monumental importance in the society of America, but her presence was ground-breaking for my Navajo family. In her constant need to create and make cultural items and art, she instilled in me her matriarch ways.

As long I can recall, my grandmother was a "creative spirit." She was a seamstress and traditional weaver.  These two skills were embedded in her DNA, passed to her in the blood from her mother and all of her Navajo matriarchs who lived before her.  They were weavers of beautiful, grand rugs and they designed and created their own Navajo women's garments and attire.


Venaya's grandmothers


Such contributions to the clothing culture of the American southwest was adopted and sometimes acculturated by mainstream fashion.  My grandmother and great-Aunts were steadfast in their cultural clothing expression and in my opinion they were ground-breakers in that way.  I share this image above as a visual example of such fashion design and creation by my grandmother Jane (pictured on left) and her her adopted-sister.

The ways of my matriarch Jane were instilled in my spirit on the day of my birth.  As I grew into adult womanhood, we perpetuated such activities women in our culture.  The recognition of innate gifts given to the human is vital in keeping the richness of a people's cultural ways alive and 'living."  I do not mean that one should boast about their skills, but simply and humbly dialogue about the process of making such items and about how those items are necessary to keep life balanced.

My late grandmother and her completed rug

Growing up I was witness on a constant basis on the process of making art in the weaving that was happening in the homes of the above mentioned women of my family.  Family is very important to the Navajo dynamics of the home life. When a family loses a matriarch the loss is felt deeply.  The days, week, months and years after the death of a loved one is important to be acknowledged, for by doing so the healing is taking place.  I know this well as I am amidst such ways now.


Blessings and healing,

Venaya

Thursday, July 16, 2020

Forever my muse


Art as Therapy for a spirit in grief



My late maternal grandmother, Jane Werito Yazzie
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Venaya J. Yazzie


Five months have passed since I lost my grandmother.  Everyday I wake up and begin the process of missing her again.  Every moment I experience now, I think about how she would have reacted to it.  I find myself planning my daily activities as if she was still physically present on earth.  My brain is confused and seems to be constantly trying to keep up with the ever-changing status of my spirit.  To be honest my heart is broken, I am broken.

I lived a full life with her with me.  She was always by my side. She was my rock, my muse.  Now that she has traveled on to the next world, I am here existing in what feels like a cloud.

My late maternal grandmother, Jane Werito Yazzie was my best friend. We were more than forty years apart in age yet we were similar in many ways.  We loved the same things in life, we talked the same, were amused by parallel things. Together, as grandmother and adopted grand-daughter, we faced the joys and challenges of Navajo life in the Four Corners community. "Mom" passed on from this life on earth to the next world in early February of this year and since then, my life has been a struggle.

As an artist I have sought out the possibility to get "inspired" again, but it has not been easy. In the last five months I found myself leaning on Art, but not being totally aware I was.  What I have found is that many of the avenues of art, including the 'process' of art are taken for granted.  I know that I am guilty of this too.

After this trauma of loss of a beloved matriarch, I realize that art should always be considered as a means of perpetuating the human / emotional, spiritual healing process.  I have wondered among the many online art galleries of global artists and I have created my own home gallery of artwork from Indigenous artists I have collected through the years.  What were my intentions of these activities? By doing these tangible things, did I think they would hopefully fill the emptiness and loneliness I was experiencing?  Today I am pondering these kind of questions, and am still asking myself.  What is my purpose as an artist?

In the five months since her passing, I have come to the realization that I have been able to work through my mourning of her.  This personal journey of healing has been initiated through all the months of the grieving process by unconsciously living the life of a multi-media artist.  I can truthfully express that art saved me, and that today art is healing my broken spirit! The concepts of art as therapy have worked as a spiritual source for me.  My awareness of art as a therapuetic act has allowed for me to find some balance again.  My work as a painter and multi-media artist has steered me be in my studio for several hours a day.  In that space of art tools and the art itself has brought me to a state of being that is tolerable and my creative flow of energy and thought is becoming clearer day by day. In my research of grief after the death of a loved one I have learned that it has 7 stages. They are fully emotional and include: shock (disbelief), deniel, bargaining, guilt, anger, depression and acceptance and hope.

So, where do I think I am existing within this paradigm of the human grieving process?

Well, I am consciously aware that I have accepted the death of my grandmother. I know though that there is now set time of when mourning and grief will end or can be cured.  I know that I carry hope now, that because of my belief of the spiritual existence of the Creator God, I believe I will see her again in the afterlife.

Art as therapy is a concept realized this week.  I see that the art-way is wholly ingrained within the Navajo material culture, but moreover, it is rooted in the Navajo Philosophy of 'Iina' - Life.  This was evident in my family through the women of my immediate and extended family, who in act existed as 'Creatives.' They lived lives of women artists.  This is a profound realization for me!  For example, my great grandmother who was born in 1907 was an avid weaver of traditional Navajo rugs and blankets. She was also an extraordinary seamstress.  My grandmother Jane also encompassed these traits and they both passed on this ways to me.  For that I know my life is blessed indeed!

My goal now is to continue doing my art in every aspect that I feel is relevant for me to continue healing my heart and spirit.  My grandmother  Jane gave me all of the goodness of her life, she was living a life with me in mind and now in adulthood I am living those ways through the Arts.  I know I will still have the bad days, the sad days and the grief will still linger, but as an artist I know that the one constant is my art.

I pray for blessings all around me. And too, I pray for blessings all around you.

Venaya